This was created to write about you. I know it sounds stupid but so what?I am... Never behaved like an Express student, never gotten good results for my academics. Do i deserve to be in express?I'm still wondering. O levels and Prelims are coming and i'm still slacking here. Can someone just wake me up and get me to work my ass off? I need to be reminded to study continuously, i guess thats what my mum always says. Being a lazy bum in studying but a dragon when i'm out playing. Guess what, i guess my life is such a failure... Messaging with u till night study started.Den ended i got a few messages back frm you. So what?I guess i'm losing you soon. Waited for you at the bus stop, den when you came down, i guess you didn't see me. Walked to ur fren and my hope was almost gone...Den you turned around and walked to me! Was happy and my heart was pumping super fast. Den walked to cross road, held your hands for awhile den u said we're still in uniform. So i tried to believe it but somehow, i thought it was all just excuses... Holding your hands reminded me of the last time i held your hand... Walked with you through underpass,talked and chatted. Seeing u smile and laughing happily,I felt happy too. To see you smile and laugh was 1 thing i would wish for... Den waited for u at bus-stop. And den you said"finally he msg me sia!" So being the loser me, just said... "Oh,good lah.*Smile*den say go talk to him more lah" So things were sad at the end...waved goodbye to you as you left and *smile* again... My smiles are out of place, and if you look carefully, you can realise that i wasn't smiling heartily On my way back home, scenes of you telling me about him messaging you kept replaying. I couldn't help but i guess i shed tears... Friends said we look compatible, but somehow i can't be with you... I had enough of people coming in between and at the wrong timing! When ever i'm about to get you, someone has to come out... What the hell is this? Suddenly i feel like a failure... I ain't smart, ain't good looking, ain't talented and can't have the girl i loved so much... You said i'm the one whom cares alot about you but den your heart is still with him So what this means?You love him huh?Don't be with me just because i care alot about you... Be with me because you love me... What happened to the time when u took pic with me and ur heart was beating damn fast? And what happened to the time when you were tounge tied when taking pic with me? Where did all these go? Why don't you realise that maybe you still love me? It always happens to me... I guess thats me, the boy that everything happens to. Ninja warrior, died at the dip thingy...Was too fast i guess. Nights guys, i guess i'm losing her
♥ G L A M B E R T S UNITE! | 5:45 AM
{Career Day}
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Woke up, dressed up like a crazy wild boy and went to school. People stare at me and i just look like i'm in a rush la, 1st to ignore the staring second to get out of their sight. Assembly at hall, sat on chairs.Got a clear view of you from the back. But somehow you were with that guy. Den aft tt lessons bore me till i can really drop dead. Recess didn't see you den very sian la. Go to swensens, eager to see you but was allocated far away from you. You waited for me after school just to take a pic with me. Was so excited la, den took pic and peer pressured to go northpoint with jakeh,wh and Ghij Den went there, wh bought ear item den went back. Otw saw brandon...He's so sucessful sia. Go into same course as the 4Exp despite being playing soccer with me and sec 5 My idol....HAHA Den sent the guys to interchange den walk as i msged u Saw your msg"if you want den come lor" I ran to cross the traffic light hoping to see u asap. Den reach there, talked to u, sat down with you... Chat till ur bus came.Den you went up.I waited till ur bus left. Thought u won't look at me anymore but u waved to me as ur bus left. Was so happy as tt happened.Den go home, talk to u online... So found out tt you had feelings for 2 other guys. You intended to wait till they talk to u or else u will forget about them. So aft tt, u gtg...Texted you and u said talk about us instead of the 2 guys and you So i asked who am i to you? You said"u are like my very close friend in fact more den that...seriously,u are the wan dat is there 4 me when my world are tearing apart,u never fails to make me laugh even if i didnt wan to smile" That really made my day. Seriously I would be perfect with you by my side.You are really wanted. Ask me have you ever ever really loved a woman. My answer I loved her and gave my heart and soul into getting her. I gave everything just to have her, i really really loved a woman(you)... If i can't have you, I don't want nobody baby...
Adam sang If i can't have you, all judges praised him. I hope america sees his talents too. VOTE FOR HIM!He is the true american idol. Make the right choice now.
Adam Lambert-If i can't have you
Don't know why I'm surviving every lonely day When there's got to be no chance for me My life would end and it doesn't matter how I cry My tears of love are a waste of time If I turn away am I strong enough to see it through? Go crazy is what I will do If I can't have you, I don't want nobody baby If I can't have you, ah hah hah ah If I can't have you, I don't want nobody baby An i strong enough to see it through? if I can't have you
♥ G L A M B E R T S UNITE! | 4:46 AM
{Really Really Loved A Woman}
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
This is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS. Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you see these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random it is, just type it! Repost it for all of your friends. Consider yourself tagged if you are reading this!
1. Beer: Burning throat 2. Food: sausages? 3. Relationships: gotta make it better 4. Your CRUSH: Fatigue 5. Power Rangers: Green Ranger! 6. Life: Live like there's no tomorow 7. The President: Rich 8. Yummy: Sweet 9. Cars: Fast and Furious 10. Movies: Screams 11. Halloween: Sweets! 12. Sex: Whats that? 13. Religion: FREE 14. Hate: roaches 15. Fear: Losing you 16. Marriage: When i'm ready 17. Blondes: Hour Glass 18. Slippers: White and Gay 19. Shoes: Torn apart 20. Asians: Noisy 21. Pass time: Adam Lambert's recordings 22. One night stand: WWE 23. My cell Phone: Red and Sexy 24. Smoke: Cough 25. Fantasy: Torture Chamber 26. College: Living in a dorm 27. High school life: Get by each day 28. Pajamas: Comfortable! 29. Stars: A(eh) star 30. Center: parting! 31. Alcohol: burns my throat... 32. The word love: given and never returned 33. Friends: Chill out 34. Money: Spend or save? 35. Heartache: Losing you 36. Time: Coursework!!! 37. Divorce: Sad 38. Dogs: Husky 39. Undies: Disgusting 40. Parents: Filial Piety 41. Babies: Poor wifey 42. Ex: PENSIVE! 43. Song: RING OF FIRE 44. Color: RED 45. Weddings: Formal 46. Pizza: Hawaiian 47. Hangout: Soccer 48. Rest: Bed 49. Goal: "Nice one sebas!" 50. Inspiration: Give it to me!!!
Today school was boring, saw you ,seen you ,want you... But obviously lost you... Tmr's career day, everyone dressed smart... I'm gonna look like a clown!HAHA Anyway, Its gonna be hot and DO NOT LAUGH AT ME TMR! I'll DISS YOU TILL YOU CRY! HAHA... Adam Lambert later.Be sure to catch it 10pm on 5! Thats all ya'll...
♥ G L A M B E R T S UNITE! | 6:25 AM
{Just another day}
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Hello peeps, if any. Wonder who really reads every single word i typed and understands everything i said. Today school was just another day to get by with. Truthfully speaking, Mr Yong's class was the one lesson that i get laughter from and interested about... Everyday there's new stories that are related to the topic we are learning. So we do not go off course... So school was finally over for the day. Went to Canteen, found NJK and off we went to BK for lunch. Enjoyed my meal, and went home rushing to meet Gerjo at 4. He fell asleep at home, so we were late. Tried on many pants, wanted to get a brown or dark brown pants because of the colour and another for the material respectively. So ended up getting black as i didn't know if that colour fitted my shirt. Anyway, when buying my pants, i saw you and ur friend walking past. I guess you didn't notice me at 1st but after awhile u saw me. So somehow you just walked pass G2000 quickly for idk what reason. After purchasing the pants, we went to 900+ to alter my pants coz i'm short?HAHA Den walk past interchange saw you again... This time, i guess i was the one that ignored you.Somehow shy or stunned. Idk what to do at that moment. Went to alter my pants and had dinner at 925. Chicken rice...YumYum!-.- After eating, went to interchange to take 804 to school for NS It was 6 and i guess i'm late?haha... So being the typical me, listen to Adam Lambert's songs repeatedly and skipping the other songs. Studied with Fu Jie den halfway he ps me... Go talk to others... Den i do maths and MT lor. Mr T (I guess) came along and said don't do chinese la, letter writing crap la.Makes sense to me. So he got a B3 for o level which to me was Good result. So, found him quite a funny and interesting guy la Den work work work, den saw alot of your friends go off. So was wondering where were you lah,den saw you staying in the canteen. Doing your work, from being at the same row as me to infront of me. What ever the reason, i'm tired... Somehow you were looking at him la, i know. Your heart still belongs to him.So what am i waiting for since there's none for me left? Its like mama baked a jar of cookies and all of it were taken away by others leaving me with nothing. So i can't be sad, maybe i ain't good enough for you i guess. Bussed back on the same bus with you, but i kept silence. Sat far away as i saw you with another guy. Listened to Adam Lambert's songs again and all the way till i'm home. Now being tired and dead beat, gonna finish up my maths homework and pack my bag. Off to dreamland once i complete these tasks.
I know its wrong to love you still but i just can't help it.I'm sorry...
♥ G L A M B E R T S UNITE! | 6:21 AM
{Ck's birthday and NAPFA test}
Monday, April 20, 2009
Jeff Hardy- Dance with the demon
This wasn't my idea
Ignore the fact that i have no figure...
That was ck's birthday party...
Napfa was kinda good for me la i guess
2.4km run/walk - B
Sir and reach - B
Pull-ups - A
Shuttle run - A
Sit ups - A
Standing Board Jump - C
If only my academics were this good ah...HAHA.
Thats all, i'm tired man....
BORN TO BE WILD!!!!!!!!
♥ G L A M B E R T S UNITE! | 6:40 AM
{Where are you?}
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
hmm,today went to school feeling dissapointed as ever.
Starting 1st part of school was bullshit.
Everything sucks.
But somehow after the party in the canteen of celebrating chwin kye's bday.
I got more cheered up i guess...
Pictures shall do the talking then...
After school was told to stay back till 4 for emaths remedial.
Lunched in canteen.Saw you looking at the direction i was at.
So closed to you and i had a good look at your face.
Hope you took a good look at my face.
You'll see my smile looks out of place, if you look closer its easy to trace.
The tracks of my tears...
Knowing me guess what i will do during the time after lunch till 4?
Obviously playing soccer.
Well, game was alright...Managed to JOGA the ruggers.haha
Managed to score and had a volley that hit the crossbar at the side.
Finally the feel is back.
The Sebas is BACK!
Anyway game was great, wet like hell after the game.
Went to fitness corner slack slack den sir james came.
Signed the founder's application form den slack again.
Off to remedial as i changed out of my white shirt and it was wet.
Remedial was better than i thoought and air-con plays a great role in it...
This pic was editted by me for the sake of fun and laughter.No offence dudes...Way back in 2008 3Gracious2 where toilet was our hang-out area...HAHA
ALRIGHT!!!Message from you today!FINALLY!You said your prepaid was low.So i hope that was why you didn't reply den!
I'm waiting for more of your replies.Message me please.I need you!
♥ G L A M B E R T S UNITE! | 5:07 AM
{Dissapointment?}
Monday, April 13, 2009
Was i too over concern about you? Or was it anything that has to do with me? Why you just have slight feelings for me and den go back to the colder side of you? You came online and i was so happy to see you. But somehow i wanted to know if you still have that feeling for me... Too bad you probably didn't meant it. When you told me those words, i went up to cloud nine. Hoping to see some achievement, but den again... You pushed me away so far now that i can hardly see you or feel you. Why do you have to get me happy and sad all the time? Today went to school and i was kind of worn out. By you, by myself, by everything. I don't know if i should carry on trying to survive my days. Or should i just sit back and watch what will happen to me? Maybe you will eventually go with another guy? And i'll be left all alone? Watching everything and everyone changing as time flies. I guess it wasn't right for me to carry on loving you so much though the fact that you love someone else already. It wasn't easy to get over the breakup with you and try to get you back again. Now that you don't give a shit about me, don't give a damn about me or even wanna reply my msg. I guess you just want me to die down, slowly forgetting you. You want me to forget you, saying i'm wasting my time waiting for you or even something that i know will never happen. I used to think that i can get you back. But now, i'm not too sure. I used to say that i'll get back with you soon, guess i just wasn't good enough. Seen you today in school for just that few seconds. You appear walking pass me all the time but talking to your friends.In fact, guys.And i guess it was on purpose... But why won't you just appear talking to me? I wonder if i'm getting that 2 things you said you were gonna give it to me. I'm waiting and I guess i may not be able to get it. Not replying my msgs made me even worse. Now that everything seem almost lost, i'm not sure if i should continue hanging on. If things were just that simple... If only we started last year, our relationship would have became stronger, better and we can even be together now. Knowing that you really loved me last year, i went with you but why did that someone had to come in... He messes everything up and leaves them lying around just like that. I think i just have to carry on surviving each day, hoping, wishing, wondering...
♥ G L A M B E R T S UNITE! | 3:01 AM
{Sending my brother to training}
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Alright bro, its just another day in camp.
Camps are typical.Trainings and stuffs. Everything will be over soon.
I woke up in the morning, went to par sir ris bus interchange and took the bus to SAF ferry terminal.
Took boat there and seperated from bro...
So me, mum and dad continued on our journey around the camp.
Well, they didnt show us everything actually.Showed us first aid centre, stadium, swimming pool, bunks(13 beds)2 close to window (BAD) and 1 facing door with table inbetween(WORSE)!
MSG-ed bro to quickly snatch bed if can.HAHA
Den went to sit down 1st, relax after walking in the insane burning sun...
Den go to lecture room see wat they are provided with and how to use all those things.
Den go canteen slack slack awhile.Ate Mee Siam with dad.
Den go auditourium i guess thats what they call it.
Watch video, listen to commander speech, see bro and mates oath, den "Majulah Singapura" and off we go to makan...
Not nice la the veg chicken okok only, rice normal, apple abit chilled soup sucks.
Den enjoy eating liao say bye bye to bro.
Wa lao...den he go fall-in...
Den they walk walk walk, very fast den zoom, gone.
Only can hear "Yes Sir!!!" on the way back to jetty to wait for boat.
Boat sucks, aircon spoil.Suffocating in there.Den come out happy happy.
Go take bus den realise bus also abit cannot move den air con also very lousy.
Went home because no swimming club ):
SIAN!Den go home dad sleep, mum go cousin hse, i use comp...
Den eat with dad den go walk walk at northpoint and mum joined later on.
♥ G L A M B E R T S UNITE! | 8:22 AM
{You make my world go round}
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Well, didn't update coz too tired la...Haha. These few days been staying back after school to practice for speechday. Speechday was held yesterday and the marching wasn't that well done in my opinion(: Think the others could see me in the hall?They had a camera that records the parade and somehow people in the hall were able to see the parade. Went up to stage to recieve CCA award.Not bad, got a box with something wierd inside. Den after that went to canteen changed out of full-u and decided where to go next. Saw you with your friends but i guess you just don't see me. Went on with friends for lunch and den home.Should have stayed in school to watch... When you told me that he stayed backto watch you from 3rd floor, i felt wasted Should have done the same.You know everything i do is all about you. Trying to show you smth...Somehow i'm afraid of losing out to him... Well, after that...you msged me. Maybe because you had no one to msg or you wanna msg me.IDK Cherished every second i have with you. Asked if you had feelings for me and i got an unexpected reply like this "a bit,i don know why, when u were marching my eyes alwys searchin 4 u sia..." Idk if i should carry on clinging on to this hope. Hoping to go back with you. To the Us that i thought was wonderful. Maybe a bit of me is nothing compared to him... You told me you liked him and he liked you too. But he ignores you I know how you feel as i was once like you... You said hearing me call you "Baby" would cheer you up. Idk if its true.but i won't die try'in So who do you really feel for? Now you're away from town, i guess its just me to sort things out myself. No more msgs from you, no more words. I hope that that abit would grow when you're away. Everything has to do with you...
Watched american idol, Adam was the last to perform on wednesday. Simon gave a standing applause to him.As he will be the only one talking due to time limit. And the last to go on stage was the 1st to get through. Adam sang "Mad World" by tears for fears. Adam Lambert-Mad world All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Going nowhere, with their daily races Going nowhere, Going nowhere And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you 'Cos I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very Mad World Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, look right through me And I find it kind of funnyI find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you 'Cos I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, veryMad World
Its the last song in the playlist and hope you enjoy it. Thanks for reading ya.
♥ G L A M B E R T S UNITE! | 10:41 PM
WHY ADAM!
ADAM FREAKING ROCKS!
"When the power of love is overcome by the love of power, the world will know peace." -Jimi Hendrix
{GLAMBERT}
My name is Sebastian and Adam Lambert is really good. May 25 1993 male I'm not much of a saint. I can only try to do better today than i did yesterday
Jeff Hardy- Dance with the demon
This wasn't my idea
Ignore the fact that i have no figure...
